Monday, July 03, 2006


What if you hate this journey?
What if you have learned nothing?
What if you are a meaner, smaller, more bitter person than when you started?
What if it’s just as hard to read the success stories as it is to read the failures?
What if it’s harder?
What if love your nephew and niece so much that your heart could burst, but you still remove their pictures from the fridge because you don’t want to look at them everyday and be reminded of what you don’t have?
What if you thought the past few years had made your relationship with your husband stronger, but then you realize maybe they haven’t.
What if you thought you knew what to do next, but now that you’re here you don’t?
What if you try to imagine your life five years into the future and you come up blank?

What then?