Sick of being sick

I’m tired of waking up tired.

One week post-lap and it still hurts when I sneeze, cough or laugh. Two of the three incisions are healing up nicely, but my belly button is a gnarled mess. I don’t think I’ll ever get back my perfect ‘inny’. But I suppose that’s the least of my worries.

The surgery went well. They did what they needed to do. One tube removed, one endometrioma drained, and a fair amount of endometriosis lasered (there’s quite a lot of it in there). My doctor was conservative and careful, just as he’d promised to be. My friend the anaesthetist held my hand as I fell asleep.

In the recovery room I asked whether they’d be giving me any pain killers. Oh you’ll be okay for a couple of hours, the nurse said. We gave you a codeine suppository. Great. While I was under full anaesthetic someone shoved a pill in my but. Which nurse got that job?

Although I went back to work after resting at home for a day, I’ve been taking full advantage of my situation. My husband has been a very very good nurse ferrying cups of tea, toast, soup, juice, Tylenol etc. to me as I lay in bed or on the couch.

I'm hoping this is the end of the ‘losing body parts’ chapter of my life. I mean, how many reproductive bits can a woman lose before they don’t call her a woman? I’m down to one damaged tube and a portion of an ovary.

FSH tested yesterday and it’s shot up to 18.
Yes, it could be a temporary reaction to the surgery…my ovary is quite possibly pissed off at being manhandled. We’ll see what happens next month.

Thalia and I seem to be in a similar situation- trying to rest the ovaries (ovary in my case) enough so that they/it will respond to stimulation, but wait too long and the endo will come back. In my case, suppressing the endo with BCPs is not an option- my ovary will just fall asleep and not wake up. The Antagonist approach is also a no-go since I’ve ovulated (twice!) through the Antagonist. I’m too tired to come up with a plan. I want someone else to figure it out and to just tell me what to do.

Next post will be more happy clappy. Promise.