things can only get better?

Well, I don't know if I believe that.
Cause from where I'm sitting, things just get worse.
Today's blood test reveals that (surprise!) after two years of steadily coming down, my FSH has jumped back up. I'm expecting a stern phone call any day now from the big NY clinic barring me from cycling with them.
AND
A recent ultrasound confirms that yes, one tube (the one we had thought was the good tube) is blocked and surgery is recommended. I thought I'd be waiting months for surgery but they've managed to schedule it for 3 weeks from now. (These days that passes for good news).
So now I'll be missing an ovary and a tube. Yea!
Didn't seem to need those reproductive bits anyway.

After getting my FSH results I made an appointment with my acupuncturist tout de suite. Perhaps my decision to forgo all that poking was ill conceived. And I'm seriously wondering whether my lack of discipline in the vitamin taking-coffee drinking-bread eating department has had a negative affect. Once again I'll end up blaming myself.

Had a visit today from a co-worker who has been on mat leave for over 9 months. She, her husband (a physician, of course) and the baby (adorable, of course) are going on holiday to Florida for two weeks. "It'll be such a nice break" she says.
??
Break from what?
From the joy of being at home everyday with your baby?? I bit my tongue and said nothing.

edited jan 20th

hello all, i will look into the AMH test. regarding the blocked tube, lynnette is correct- the idea being that the fluid in tubes can be toxic and prevent embryos from implanting (ie. it kills them). in my case i've never had any implant so perhaps this is what's going on. but who knows. here is the most recent review of the subject.